Hannah Baker (from the tape): Clay... Helmet... your name does not belong on this list. But you need to be here if I'm going to tell my story. If I'm going to explain why I did what I did. Because you aren't every other guy. You're different. You're good and kind... and decent. And I didn't deserve to be with someone like you. I never would. I would have ruined you. It wasn't you. It was me... and everything that's happened to me.
Hannah Baker (from the tape): I know it was guilt I was feeling. And anger. I think lots of anger. Anger at the whole f*cking world and the way it works. But mostly anger at myself. For what I could have had, and never would. That's terrible decision number two. That's up next. That's another sad and stupid story. There's so much wrong in the world. There's so much hurt. I couldn't take knowing I'd made it worse. And I couldn't take knowing it would never get any better.