(Tyler is examining the new tiles in Alex's bathroom)
Alex Standall: That's where it went. The bullet. That's where it went. Yeah, I had never shot that kind of gun before, so it was heavier than the other ones, and I flinched. And the bullet went up, and then in and out of my skull and into the wall. That's what they told me.
Tyler Down: You don't remember?
Alex Standall: No, I don't remember anything of like, a month before that.
Zach Dempsey: We're not allowed to talk about suicide. Or you. Or Hannah.
Jessica Davis: Says who?
Zach Dempsey: Says the school. They made a rule the day after you... after that day. And if you talk about it on campus, you get suspended.
Alex Standall: That's so fucked up.
Zach Dempsey: Yeah.
Alex Standall: Mom, did I leave a note?
Carolyn Standall: Yes. You left a note.
Alex Standall: I want to see it.
Carolyn Standall: Alex, honey, I... I don't know that you're ready to...
Alex Standall: What? To know the truth? Or know why I did it? Is this that you don't want me to think about it or you just don't want to talk about it? It's my goddamn note, Mom, I want to see it!
(She gives him the note eventually)
Carolyn Standall: Do you want to talk about it?
Alex Standall: Um... What does this mean? "I could have stopped it." What does that mean? How could I have stopped it?
Carolyn Standall: It just means that you felt terrible guilt. That you felt responsible, but that is too much for any one person to take on. You know that now, right?
Alex Standall: "I could have stopped it."
Alex Standall: This trial has me freaked out. What have people been saying about us? What do they know?
Jessica Davis: We're gonna find out.
Alex Standall: Jess...
Jessica Davis: Look, whatever happens, we're gonna stick to the plan. I don't remember what happened to me, just like you don't remember what happened to you. Right?
Alex Standall: Right.
Alex Standall: I know people have been talking about me for months now.
Bill Standall: Who's been talking about you?
Alex Standall: It's a small town, Dad. I can't even go outside without people looking at me. Or talking about what I did. Or what Hannah did and I failed to do. And I'm just sick of hiding from them all.
Bill Standall: You're not hiding from anyone. You're recuperating.
Alex Standall: I can still do that. Just out there. And Hannah's trial that means people are finally gonna hear her story, and I want to help tell it.
Bill Standall: Okay. Well, you keep pushing ahead.
Justin Foley: Dude, this is all gonna come out now. Aren't you freaked?
Alex Standall: No. I'm glad.
Justin Foley: Seriously? We're all fucked now.
Alex Standall: We were fucked anyway.
Alex Standall: Jesus, Montgomery, leave him alone.
Montgomery de la Cruz: Why? You want to go again?
Alex Standall: Do you? Didn't you just get back from suspension?
Montgomery de la Cruz: Fuck you, Alex.
Alex Standall: No thanks, Monty, you're not man enough.
Montgomery de la Cruz: Okay.
Tyler Down: I suppose you expect me to thank you.
Alex Standall: Actually I'd like it if you never spoke to me again.
Alex Standall (to Clay): I mean, like... right now, maybe it's easier being mad at him than being sad. That's cool. But... I also think that maybe someday you might feel worse if all you were today was mad, you know what I mean? Sometimes you judge people... I mean, we all do. Sometimes you just... live to regret it.
Alex Standall (to Clay): Can't believe this fucking school. They're already putting up drunk driving posters.
Justin Foley: Whatever happens to us happens to you too.
Alex Standall: If I kill myself, you die too?
Clay Jensen: Maybe you need some chamomile tea.
Alex Standall: 'Cause people are listening? Well, it's too bad no one paid attention before.
Alex Standall (to Clay): You want to think whatever you did couldn't be why Hannah killed herself. But the truth is that I did, I killed Hannah Baker! And Justin killed Hannah Baker. And Jessica. And you. We all killed Hannah Baker.
Alex Standall: What, they think these are gonna save someone's life? "Suicide's not an option"? Yeah, you know what? Clearly it is an option, you know? Why don't they put up a poster that says "Don't be a fuckin' dick"? Why don't we put up that poster?
Clay Jensen: Yeah, that would be cool with me. I try not to be a dick.
Alex Standall: Yeah, we all try.